Ok so the workload is very very heavy and Im obviously overloaded but I couldnt care less.Work makes me focus without getting distracted by other unhappy things,maybe except my darling Javier.I have very good colleagues and we always joke like mad.It seriously relieves the stress that everyone is facing.BUT most of the time Im so busy till I dun even have time to sneak a peek at my Hp to look at his pics.So Sad.


I am not sure its the stress or the hurt that is making me having difficulties sleeping at night.I only sleep an average of 4 hours a day.Just this week I spent 2 of my working days sleeping for just 2 hours.And then I head for work the next day.Surprisingly,I wun feel sleepy while working.Instead,I feel more energetic.I think I am weird.Haha!


I can even dream of working.And then I get woken up by his sleep-talking.I can feel Javier when he moved and will wake up to check on him.I turned into a super super light sleeper.Totally not healthy I know.


When I reach home from work,Javier has already slept.Sometimes I feel that I might as well work longer.So that I can earn more OT and at the same time,forget about those unhappy thoughts.Maybe he is not good with words but I do not think it is an excuse.Talking it out so many times with him and he always end up the same way.Why why why?Is he really so selfish?I dun really think so.But I think he changed alot.I dont feel that he's an irresponsible husband/father just like his sister but he always proved me wrong.Time and again.Whats the point of apologising if you will do it again?I dun bother now and just let you do what you wanna do as Im so tired already.So tired of feeling sad and hurt that I cant be bothered anymore.But it doesnt mean that I dont love you anymore.Javier is our son but why are you so jealous?Maybe you knocked your head somewhere and got some screws loose in your head.Haha!



Maybe by working I can forget such thoughts.I really hope that I work till I fall one day.So maybe AT LAST you will know and understand the stress that Im facing since Javier was born.The stress for being a prisoner at home,the stress at work,the stress that you're adding on to me,the stress from your family,the stress to make sure that Javier is fine and healthy,is finally making the once-strong Evelyn crumble and collapse 1 day.


Or maybe by the time when you finally understand,everything will be too late.

Just too late...to regret.....

I do not like people who act concerned but actually wanna get more insider news so that she can gossip around with others.


Thanks for your care n concern but I rather you fuck off from me,actress.

Ok,thanks to some selfish ass she had the worst weekend.Summore its the last weekend before I start work!!!I hate him.He loves drinking more than his so called only love.WAHAHA what a great joke.

Dont forget how u treated her this morning.Ignoring her msgs,rejecting her phonecalls and off-ing your damn lousy Hp.And,did not even show an act of concern despite her endless pleas to ask u to come home.Oh and not to forget the lies!And to top it off, a lecture and a stupid 'debate' when he came home.

LOSER.

go n eat shit.

Betrayal of Trust . Many Many Lies . Endless Excuses . Pushing the Blame . Cold Hearted . Self-Centred Freak

A VERY HAPPY
MARRIAGE

Saturday was fine.Dinner at Far East with clique before heading to Spyder Parklane for a slacking/beer/soccer - session.The match was interesting.Didnt go to Boat Quay eventually wif Kenny and headed home straight.

Sunday was a trip to the inlaws.ZJ and XJ came to slack.Javier was not his noisy self that day,somehow I kinda miss my MIL although she nags quite abit and my FIL though he is very quiet.Haha!Mood was quite good the whole day except some 'girl' have to spoil it abit by taking Javier's pics with flashes and caused his eye to tear more and thus,have infection again.I really have this urge to use my digicam and snap a picture of her Or Che face right infront of her eyes so that she will know how it feels.But then,I wouldnt risk cracking the lenses of my digicam would I? Went Houg Plaza for their supper and home sweet home.

Monday was fine,but Javier was cranky and kept crying cos of his infected eyes.Tuesday he cried too and he was the same today.Hope his eyes can recover faster,so that he wun be so 辛苦.Been extremely busy recently with emails and quotations to send for YQ.If only Keong can help me but he always complains that he is tired and sleeps at freaking 9pm,leaving me to do everything all by myself.Argh.I do 'hate' him sometimes.

Have been busy catching up with Cheryl too.I missed out too much on her life in 2007.Didnt noe that she went thru so much,n I hope it isnt too late to be there for her.Wahaha cheers to the 8 yrs of frenship that we have,and the 6 years of close frenship that we have.Thanks to that LJL for causing it,we are closer den ever,hope that ure looking at my blog NOW.

Lotsa pictures of my Javier to 'Hao-Lian':

His crying (the most extreme one)

His 1st successful poo nt in the diapers.LOL!

A chiobu walked passed.

My Sunshine


The Innocent

Liar Liar Liar

Hope ur nose grow longer.

No need to tell lies,cos u will be exposed in the end n tt makes things worse.We gif u face as a fren,thats y we choose to keep quiet.

Gdnite.

Javier brightens up the whole household.I love him soooooooooo much.

Keong's on activation tonight so he wun be coming home till tml morning,and only starts work at 6pm in the evening.Hopefully he doesnt sleep too long so that we can bring Javier to Town,and then pass the damn MC to my boss so that I can collect my pay.


Have a sudden urge to splurge..hope all goes as planned tml..


Thought of getting a tattoo again.But not sure where to place it..Gonna do some research 1st.Hehe dont wanna have ugly tattoos like someone.

Left home at around 10.30pm.Was supposed to go Central wif keong but then was lazy n dnwtssbhab.Sorry Pearly..will drop by sometime to pass u Jerica's pressie b4 it collects dust.

Cabbed down to DJ's hse and meet the rest for the much craved mahjong.Ordered Macdonalds' and played 1 round only.Lose 90 cents overall.Wahaha.Left at 3am plus.

Will be slacking at home today while hubbs attends his colleague's wedding dinner at Park Royal.