I know this entry might stir up some things again.However,I will not feel good if I dont pen it down.

I came across some things which got me totally shocked.Those things that he said about me to you guys,I didnt even know I did them myself.Am I really that bad of a person?If I really did feel that way about you,why did i bother in the 1st place to hang out with you?Why you guys think that I act a mature front infront of you,and then 'expose my true colours' to u in the end?If I really do that,what do I actually gain from it?NOTHING.

I am not playing the victim or whatsoever,if I am spreading rumours abt you,who can I spread it to?If we are really that evil in the 1st place,why did we even bother to rush down all the way from harbourfront to pass u that sum?Did we really mistreat you?If we are really that bad and spread rumours like what you said we did,your 'gambling story' would have been spreaded like crazy.Those ppl whom we talked about it to,already know what happened bcos u told them urself.

And his parent being terminally ill,yes he told me about it.I dun even noe tt shes hospitalized or what.But did I really curse his parent?I did not even tell a single thing about this issue to others not close.I am going to be a mother,why would I talk abt such bad things about people's parents.

Yes,I admit i used to dislike AGQ alot,i even complained to u guys about him.But did I really say him and curse him until that bad?No i didnt.So what makes you think tt I said such bad things about u.Just bcos he is very close to u doesnt mean that what he say is true.You guys must think that Im a hypocrite.Disliking AGQ then patching things up with him again.I regret.Regretted that I didnt hear both sides b4 accusing him of things which he did not do at all.He must have felt real sad too.I am glad that everything is solved now.The main culprit was exposed eventually.

I do not know how a person can have so much hatred inside him.But I pity him because what makes him happy is to make things miserable for others.

This is my lesson learnt,I played with fire.I refused to listen to keong n some other frens when they told me that this person is not so simple.Becos of this issue,I quarrelled wif keong several times.I even had to think of excuses to explain about keong's reason for not talking to him.I chose to trust him.Because of this trust that I have for him,my relationship with them is not that close anymore.The truth may or may not be out.You guys will not believe me anyway but at least I made my stand.And i feel so much better now.Choosing to keep quiet is not an act of cowardice.No point explaining when you dont believe me at all.But did you listen to both sides b4 you decide on what people we really are?

Maybe I should listen to cheryl n huiling's side of the story.It doesnt feel good to be accused.I miss you gers too.